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i offer you the bitterness of a man who has looked long and long at the lonely moon.

i offer you my ancestors, my dead men, the ghosts that living men have honoured in marble:

my father’s father killed in the frontier ofbuenos aires, two bullets through his lungs, bearded and dead, wrapped by his soldiers in the hide of a cow;

my mother’s grandfather -just twentyfour- heading a charge of three hundred men in peru, now ghosts on vanished horses.

i offer you whatever insight my books may hold,whatever manliness or humour my life.

i offer you the loyalty of a man who has never been loyal.

i offer you that kernel of myself that i have saved somehow -the central heart that deals not in words, traffics not with dreams and is untouched by time, by joy, by adversities.

i offer you the memory of a yellow rose seen at sunset, years before you were born.

i offer you explanationsof yourself, theories about yourself, authentic and surprising news of yourself.

ican give you my loneliness, my darkness, the hunger of my heart;

i am trying to bribe you with uncertainty, with danger, with defeat.

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(我用什么才能留住你？

我給你貧窮的街道、絕望的日落、破敗郊區(qū)的月亮。

我給你一個久久地望著孤月的人的悲哀。

我給你我已死去的先輩，人們用大理石紀念他們的幽靈：

在布宜偌斯艾利斯邊境陣亡的我父親的父親，兩顆子彈穿了他的胸膛。蓄著胡子的他死去了，士兵們用牛皮裹起他的尸體；

我母親的祖父——時年二十四歲——在秘魯率領(lǐng)三百名士兵沖鋒，如今都成了消失的馬背上的幽靈。

我給你我寫的書中所能包含的一切悟力、我生活中所能有的男子氣概或幽默。

我給你一個從未有過信仰人的忠誠。

我給你我設(shè)法保全的我自己的核心——不營字造句，不和夢想交易，不被時間、歡樂和逆境觸動的核心。

我給你，早在你出生前多年的一個傍晚看到的一朵黃玫瑰的記憶。

我給你對自己的解釋，關(guān)于你自己的理論，你自己的真實而驚人的消息。

我給你我的寂寞、我的黑暗、我心的饑渴；

我試圖用困惑、危險、失敗來打動你。）2

6.

管鋅手臂有輕微的動作，靖岳立馬握住，放在唇邊一點一點兒地啄著，眼淚隨地心引力滑落，靖岳沒有伸手去抹，管鋅的手指在他臉上顫顫巍巍地浮著，靖岳含住，聲淚俱下。

“輪到你念給我聽了。”不舍得松手，“管鋅，管鋅。”眼淚大顆大顆地墜落，像是砸下來的一樣，“你還沒有對我說情話，我不允許你欠著。我不允許。”